So at the beginning of the year I am thinking about the things in my life I wish I could change. The list runs through my mind so easily. Dissatisfaction on autopilot. I didn't like how it made me feel. Then out of nowhere I wondered if I could make a list of things I don't want to change. It was a lot harder, in no way automatic, and pitifully short.
I thought about the blessing I received before I gave birth. My body would fulfill all the needs of my son. I would be blessed with patience and understanding from my loved ones (which really means for my loved ones.) Why do we worry so much about the things we wish we could change and forget about all the stuff that is Right in our lives?
So here is my List: hard to identify, short, and so wonderful!
1. My son is a professional at nursing. He has been from the first time I put him to the breast. After all the drama with the other two I am so thankful that feeding him is relaxing and automatic.
2. In this economy where jobs are scarce I have a loving husband who has three. Maybe he is the reason jobs are hard to come by. All I know is that he loves he's family and provides for them with all of his hard work.
3. My girls are beautiful. They are not perfect. They fight and make messes and drive me crazy, but they love each other and their new little brother.
4. I can make my friends laugh. I can tell them what is going on in my house and they understand the crazy and laugh with me or at me. It doesn't matter which just as long as they listen.
Making this list run through my mind takes effort. It is not a reflex to think about my blessings. I am working on making it one though.
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